Hai..

I am feeling extremely sad..

i really nth to say..

hai..

bye..

I think its quite true..

=(

For some reason i feel very scared n worried..

My heart is trembling in fear..

=(

Hi ppl..

i guess whenever i blog i seems to b sad..

hai..

my throat seems to get stuck..

i am feeling disappointed..

i guess i duno e real u..

my care n concern dun seems to get appreciated..

hai..

i tot i will not think abt u n dun care but i jux cant seems to do so..

my brain jux cant stop thinking abt u..

Hello ppl..

i won't b posting so much nowadays..

coz i am going to study..

as i did really bad..

my bf now became my 'tutor'..

which is a really bad one..

coz he threatened me..

=(

he forced me to do hmwk n memorize things..

=(

which is a bad thing..

=(

but no matter wad he does is for my own gd..

i noe..

=)

so i shall i b a gd gal..

=)

ya so bye~~

Today is boring as usual..

=(

was emo-ing almost all day long..

i am still emo-ing abit now..

=(

after sch went rp wif peeps..

had kfc and went back to sch..

to support wan ying, erika n jz..

=)

they was having some kind of inter house soccer match..

was kinda funny to see gals playing soccer..

lolx..

anw had fun when we 'scold' her..

kinda scold..

she is like bitchy n flirty..

den after tat hm-ed..

sry..

i was toking on e phone all e way hm..

=(

sry..

was emo-ing abit..

yea..

so bye..

I feeling so freaking emo..

i feel so fk up..

hai..

Posted 3 times..

i guess i am jux too emo..

I hope i won break down n cry..

=(

GD LUCK IN UR SYF!!!

Hello ppl..

=)

added blog song..

its nice..

olivia's voice is soothing..

Title : Sometimes when we touch

Today as usual..

everything was boring..

except lit..

we had 2 whole periods playing..

we was di siao-ing wanying n jon lee..

damn fun..

N e sad thing is jordan gave e hamster away alr..

=(

had assembly..

chen ning was modelling..

she was pretty pretty..

we cheered for her..

as loud as we can.

had hg mall wif fren..

ate n slack at library..

went hm..

N i am now emo-ing like hell..

wanted to meet bf at first..

coz he was nearby but..

he was wif his frenz so suan le ba..

i always noe his fren is much for important den me..

but i find myself more n more 介意 abt it.

mayb he is leaving soon ba..

i guess so..

was emo-ing abt some clubbing stuffs..

coz i think its unfair..

hai..

fk..

i think i hving many problems lately..

every1 in my family is emo-ing which has no communication at all..

coz something happened..

my mum wanted to migrate back to hk..

which means she say she dun1 come back..

i won't see her till i go n vist her..

hai..

mayb outside i dun emo so much..

but at hm i jux can't stop myself from thinking..

=(

sadness can u plz go away??

plz..

I'm emo..

so i am trying to entertain myself..

thinking abt a damn funny conversation wif erika n mel jux now..

Erika/Mel: Wad will u do if some strangers touch u?

Me: Touch him back (being lame)

Mel: Wad if he rapes u?

Me: Rape him back

Mel: Wad if some stranger flashes at u?

Me: Flash him back !!

They laughs..

lolx..

I noe if really something like this happened i sure kick his balls out..

Laughs..

Jux being super lame..

Bye~

Hello ppl..

today was boring as usual..

had some monday blues mood..=(

after chem at the lab there...

saw this disgusting creature..

i tot its not dead yet..

so i went to blow ot..

surprisingly..

it was dead n dropped on e floor..

every1 freak out..

hahaha..

so damn funny..

lolx..

was kinda emo-ing now..

after knowing of wad happened..

feel kinda funny n angry n disapointed..

jux some mixture of feelings..

which made me felt rather emo..

bf got back his hp..

called him..

but toking to him jux make me feel zzz..

feel much more emo..

felt that something is changing in between us..

i think he dun miss me n stuffs..

hai..

i think i shall jux stop thinking abt him..

hai..

i hope tat sadness does not exist in this world..

nobody will cry or get sad or emo..

hai..

JINGZHI

Cheer up kaes??

I hope to see the bubbly and cheerful gal soon..

I hope to see u wif ur bright smile jux like e pic up there..

=)

Dun think too much..

I loves u many many..

=)

Today went sch..

met mr william goh for ss wif wan ying..

god..

i jux realise i am damn super very noob in ss..

i only tot i was noob but now..

=(

i gonna work hard..

lolx..

den went studying..

dilly dally here n there..

after eating managed to have some real studying..

dens pull wan ying around din wanna go hm..

lolx..

but finally hm i was..

was looking thru my chat log..

N i found some1 random..

N for only first time i tok to him..

for like half an hour..

he told me tat i very innocent..

very 'malleable'..

very to 'make use'?

which i think back which was quite true..

zzzz..

i hoped i changed over like 1 yr plus alr..
btw..

i saw some things which could not b revealed..

how i hoped i nv read those stuffs..

oh fk..

i wish i can brain wash myself..

omg omg..

i cnt believe it..

zzz..

oh gooooooddddd..

=(((

i'm both hungry n bloated..

lolx..

i duno yy..

lolx..

my life is like upside w/o my mum..

hahahaz..

she's at hk enjoying herself..

=((

i got a urge to go travelling suddenly..

i wanna go korea..

=(

i wan to play snow..

rahhhh..

=((

Ytd nite..

bf called me in e middle of the night around 2 plus..

was wondering if he does'nt want me anymore..

coz he will call me everytime he went mal..

but he went mia for 2 days alr..

was glad he called me..

missing him many many..

crapped n fall into deep slp agn..

i 4got wad i told him..

lolx..

i guess i was half awake n half aslp somehow..

=)

was glad anyway to hear his voice..

=)

so early in e morning..

wake up from deep pain..

i could not find any panadol..

n i tot i gonna die from deep pain..

some how in pain i fall aslp n e pain went away..

=)

was wanting to fly kite wif melia..

but e weather went moody n we cancelled it..

=(

i went to studying at hm..

finally..

=)

N did some housework as my mum is away...

=(

so nth much..

i am starting to study..

=)

jia you neh..

bye~

Hamster cute !!

Hello~

today was normal..

very was like damn sian like usual..

zzz..

had napfa..

which i sux like hell..

lolx..

i deproved alot..

=(

Sit up: 32

Sit & reach :48 cm

Incline pull up : 7

Standing Broad jump: 175 cm

Shutter run :12.1 sec

noob rite?

=(

i seriously deproved comparing to last yr..

i still hv 1 more 2.4 km to go..

dead..

i hope i can pass in 1 time..

really hope..

=(

but my stamina is dropping..

my 1.4 km run alr made me felt like fainting...

zz..

fine..

lets fate take place..

Web-cammed wif wanying ytd..

have alot of fun..

hahahaha..

was laughing like mad lo..

hahaha..

den my bf came to my house..

my mum's not around n i was bored to death..

N my bf reached..

N he continued to slp..

zzz..

N so i continue web-cam wif wan ying until i was like =.=

N i off to do work..

lolx..

N he pei-ed me for dinner..

=)

like 10 plus he den went hm..

=)

N i went to watch final destination..

which was like super disgusting in parts..

now abit fear of roller coasters..

N feel tired n slpt..

was happy when my bf pei- ed me when i was lonely n emo..

=)

i love my bf..

muackx..

so today had chem presentation..

i did disastrously coz the script was amazingly small..

i got a hrd time reading so it made me damn nervous..

zzz..

but overall was ok..

i think can get not bad..

=)

after tat had test..

went hg mall to hv pepper luched..

ask ppl do surveys..

den sushi agn..

N hm-ed..

=)

so nth much alr..

bye..

I am feeling super emo lately..

i duno e reason..

sry guys..

today i was on e verge on breaking into tears..

i'm sry..

God..

for some unknown reasons..

i felt freaking emo..

negative thoughts coming into my mind...

which is very very very bad bad bad..

hai hai hai..

for some unknown reasons i hv been regretting for some things i did..

regret regret regret..

i am breaking down soon..

i hope i hope i hope my tears would run up instead of running down..

like a water hose..

memories twirling around..

like wad melisza had said..

i thought deeply..

he could not predict e future, either do i..

things won't b e same anymore..

hai..

i jux wish time would stop..

i jux wish tat it could b fairer..

i jux wish i could stop comparing myself wif others..

so i would feel better instead..

i jux wish i could comfort myself..

but i could'nt..

=(

Today is our 22 months..

which means 2 more months to 2 yrs..

=)

time do flies pass..

hope this last forever..

=)